So I have had some time to reflect, attempt to catch up on all the sleep that I missed out on this past summer and understand this new feeling of making a home with Ben. Yes we have lived together, pretty much since we met and shared a motel strip, him right next door to me, with our shared kitchen, living space and of course our desk (with a line of tape to divide it so my stuff wouldn’t intrude on his.
Nothing prepared me for this… the feeling that we are indeed one, that our lives are completely entwined and that we have promised ourselves to one another until the end of time. We didn’t include "til death do us part" in our ceremony, because we want to travel together beyond the plane of this existence. It is an amazing journey and it is different when you are married despite living together… so pooh on all those people out there who say, "If you live together before marriage, then marriage won’t be a big deal" I have to say I think that those people just didn’t understand what marriage was or is.
Onto the name thing though. I have been hesitant to go by Kate Lubchansky… it is just so weird. It makes me feel like I am abandoning my family, like they will no longer see me as one of them. I am the only one from our immediate family that is supposed to abandon the last name… I have a really, cool and great family and don’t want to not be a part of it. It is like they are kicking me out, and what kinda sucks more (not that I am not happy about the addition) is that there is a new girl Zomboracz coming in right behind me! I did receive the marriage license official copies in the mail yesterday, so we filled out the forms right! Good work Tanya! I can go and change my name at any time, well when I am not working, so I am going to do it legally but may refer to myself with my new first and middle name… so for the time being I am still going by Kate Zomboracz, it is just weird still to do otherwise.
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